No greater feeling…

Today, I hit 190!   I am officially the weight I was when I was 16.   I now match my divers license!

I really had to giggle this morning when I seen that number.  I am loving the feeling of being a lighter, much healthier person.  

This week I plan on vamping up my workouts.  I want to do at least an hour of cardio three days a week.  Plus weight training 2-3 times a week.   I really have to work on my gut.  So, crunches everyday.  

Well, thats really all I have going on here.   Boring wife, mother duties today.  You know, laundry, dinner, being lazy :)

Becoming myself

Recently I have been feeling like a new person.

I must admit, I have never been happy with myself.  I have a horrible self image and that drug me down for a long time.  

At times, I would get so depressed that I would sulk for days.  I hated everything about myself.  I was unhealthy and out of control.  I would tell myself that I was just going to be “fat and happy” and basically eat whatever in the hell I wanted to.   Then, every now and then, I would get on a healthy bandwagon and lose 20 or 30 pounds.  I never lost enough to get skinny. I lost enough to feel a little better.  I would get so tired of eating crappy low fat food and working out that I would go back to my old habits.

I am noticing huge changes in my body.  I have collar bones now.  I havent seen them in years!   I am down to a size 12 jeans, wearing lose fitting XL shirts.  I am enjoying shopping for clothes now. 

I am not in this to be super model skinny.. I am in this to look and feel better about myself.  I am 35 years old and damnit its time for me to feel good about myself.   I am doing this for me..and me only.

I am not starving myself, and I am not taking diet pills.  There isnt a miracle drug that is just melting away the pounds.  I am doing it the hard way.  Blood, sweat and tears.  This is my life now.  A life that I will be proud of and will finally be happy with.

I’m such a slacker!

You could say that I fell off the wagon.  Or, you could say that I just didnt care.  Either way, you would be right!   The last couple of weeks, I ate what I want and didnt move my butt much.  That was fine with me, I was celebrating and didnt care.

Imagine my surprise when I actually lost weight!   I am thrilled and worried at the same time.  If I can sit on my ass and lose weight, but if I exercise I dont lose a damn thing.

UGH blogger hates me tonight, again!   I keep losing what I type. 

Anyway,   I have been back on track.  I am down to 192 and very happy with that!   At least I am not moving back toward 200!   Tomorrow I plan on working out.  Tonight is my last night of vacation and I am enjoying it!

Christmas time!

I cant believe its nearly Christmas!   I am way behind on everything.

I just wanted to post a quickie update.  I gained over Thanksgiving, worked my butt off, and finally pulled it back off.  So, I am back down to 193.

Its been crazy around here, so working out has came by way of working.

I am hoping that its enough!

Dreaded day after…

Well, I did alot better yesterday than I would have guessed.

After loading up my plate full of Thanksgiving goodness, I was able to eat only a 1/3 of what I had.  I made sure to eat more turkey than anything. But, I managed at least a bite of everything. 

The Hubs, son and I went to the movies last night.  I think everyone around here had the same idea though.  After getting home late, I ate another roll and called it dinner.   

Today I am back on track.  Hubs and I went and worked out this morning.  An hour later I thought I was going to pass out dead.  I pushed myself more today than I have in the last few weeks.  It was nice to sweat and know that I am making myself a healthy person.   I managed to work some running in on my treadmill workout.  OH LORD, its been so long since my lard ass has ran.   I did some sprints and thought I was going off the back or I was going to die.   At the end of the 1 minute sprint, I really didnt care which came.

We are going to aim for 2 work outs today.  Although I may just pop in my Biggest Loser DVD and call that good!

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving.  Back on track today!

Quickie!

I can not wait until tomorrow!  Stop counting calories and probably not working out!   LOL  Fat girl loves Thanksgiving!   

I think I finally fixed comments so that everyone can comment!  Look forward to hearing from you all!

Fit together!

I am so happy that the hubby and kiddo have joined the fitness craze around here!

My husband has never wanted to “go workout” with me.  But now, him and Jay want to go every night!  Its fun to do it together.