BL weeks 3-4

Well I totally suck ass! I gained back my loss, and dont give a crap!
I am in a bad mental spot right now...and have to get myself back to good before long.
monday is another weigh in and im sure I will gain.

I got the new New Atkins for new you book in the mail a few days ago. I think im going to climb back on the atkins train and try it.. mostly because... NOW I CAN HAVE DIET SODA!!! YAY

Ok.. off for dinner... ugh

BL week 2

Totally sucked ass! Although it was all my own fault.
I get so discouraged and so down on myself that I just dont
give a shit anymore. I ate so much food that it was pathetic!

Monday started my new week. Thank god, I needed to get
back on track and settle down a bit. I am up 4 pounds so I have some work to do!

BL- week 1

Last night was the first weigh in for "biggest loser". My friend put together a group of about 25 men and woman who needs to get healthy.

It was a reality check for me. Once I stood on the scale, I was fine. 212.9 which is what I weighed in at home. The worst part was getting measured. I dont remember my numbers, but I do remember thinking " what the hell, did you just say that huge number out loud!"

I am really excited to get a chance to do this though. I think it will push me, and thats what I need at this point! I already dont want to work out, but its cold and snowy out. But, I am going to make myself hit the treadmill tonight for at least 30 mins :)

Next weigh in is monday... so i'll keep my fingers crossed for a little loss.

HOly Crap!

Has its been forever since I am posted? Why, yes it has!
I fell off the wagon and into a pit of Oreos!
I have gained back damn near all the weight I lost, simply because I gave up.

This coming week I am starting a "biggest loser" type challenge with 24 others. I am hoping to whip my ass back into shape, and keep tabs along the way :)

I am off to spruce up my blog!


Amy

I always mean to get off my butt and write, then life seems to step in and ruin that one.

Things have been going ok. I am yoyo'ing like a fool right now. But, I did find out a side effect of one of my new meds is weight gain. And, since they doubled that medicine, I had a hard time getting the scale to move anywhere but up.

I have been trying to keep track of calories and working out at least 30 mins a day. But, I am finding it hard just to eat 3 meals a day. I think it just sounds crazy that I am not eating enough and not losing weight. Thank you sweet metabolism for your shitty ways.

Today I am sick. Some stomach bug going around. I am sure one of our patients brought it in to me. PLUS, due to a sunburn this weekend, and horrible stress. My upper lip has new residents, a ton of swollen fever blisters. DAMN.

Hope tomorrow is a better day..and hope to get back here soon to update!

suckage

I really suck at updating!

I am just gonna offer a quick update on me.

I FEEL AMAZING!

Damn seeds

I think I am addicted to sunflower seeds. Problem is.. my fat ass dont need them.
I am down 3 pounds so far this week...and im sure it could have been alot more. I guess that my new issue to work on.. layin off the seeds :)

The work outs are going great. Even though I have bum knees and I am still hanging in on the treadmill. Today I ran again for about 10 minutes and it was ok. The entire time, I am looking out the window wishing I could go running outside. Maybe once I get my allergies under control I will try it in the evenings!

Well, I better go finish laundry..and I have ass sitting to do!

No, its not a setback!

Ok, I gained about 12 pounds this last month. No, I am not saying its a set back.
The Dr warned me that I might gain some weight back, and I am not stupid to think that I wasnt.
But, quitting smoking was more of a priority to me than losing another couple pounds.
I now say that I am an EX smoker :)

The huge bag of sunflower seeds sitting here is mostly empty. And, damnit, I am laying all weight loss blame on this bag. It has its eviction notice and has until the end of the day to get outta here :)

I have been pretty good about getting back on track. Work has kept me so busy that I havent had time to even sleep, let alone work out. Once this week is over, things will get back to normal.. and damnit! Iwill report a weight loss monday! woooot woooot~

4 weeks!

I have been smoke free for 1 months...YAY!!!
With that being said, today I start with the major weight loss, again.
I am going to weigh in tomorrow morning, and see what the damage is. I am sure I gained. But, I also gained years on my life that smoking would have taken from me.

I have also been sick this week. Allergy and Sinus crap has pretty much taken over my life. This morning I am feeling alot better. The sore throat is the only thing hanging around. Its simply from only being able to breathe thru my mouth for the last 5 days, and coughing gunk up.

I am looking forward to working out a little tonight. I think a treadmill workout tonight, then maybe the bike.. I dont know yet... I am just ready to get back out there and work!

Love, peace and chicken grease!

I am NOT a fried chicken eater. I dont like KFC or anything like that... ever..
but now.. I am craving it!

How nice.

I am going to start posting some of my favorite recipes.
Why dont you? I get bored eating the same healthy stuff~!

True Slacker

I am alive!

Its been forever since I posted. What can I say, life got in the way.

Jay is finally finished up with basketball. I loved watching him play. He did so well this year and actually RAN up and down the court instead of walking. He was way more into it this year.

My weigh ins are going OK. I am down to 180. An 8 pound loss from when I last posted.
The biggest thing for me.. I QUIT SMOKING! 3 weeks with out a cigarette! I have smoked since I was 16 years old. I never in a million years thought I would quit..but I did!

This is where I had a problem. I knew I might gain weight with all the snacking I have done. BUT....
I dont even care if I gain 10 pounds back! It can be lost again. The important thing for me is to stay quit. I will not be weighing in again until the 1st of April. I want to give myself a break from the battle of the scale and deal with the most important thing..
Then I will pull my jaw up off the floor and deal with the weight loss again. Well, I dont mean that I am putting weight loss aside, but I am not weighing. It all made perfect sence in my lil brain.

Anyways.... Jay is outta school from spring break and I am off work until wednesday. So, I am enjoying my time off and getting things done around the house. I am refreshing my whore-moans so that I am get back to business later in the week.

I hope everyone is still doing well... I will be making rounds soon to see how skinny everyone is getting!

Peace, love and NO SMOKES!
Amy

I have really hit a wall lately. And, its not even weight loss that has me down.
It's the feeling that I am not losing fast enough. I KNOW, crazy right?

As of this morning, I have lost exactly 20 pounds since I went to the doctor 3 months ago. People would be joyus over that.. me, not so much. 188.0 popped up on that damn scale this morning, and I was happy for a minute, then thought, I could have lost way more than that.

I don't know where these feelings come from. People tell me "Oh you have lost alot of weight" or "You are looking wonderful" and all I can say is.. I've lost a little, and I still look fat.
I am not losing in the abdominal area...thats driving me crazy. These fat rolls are just sticking to me like glue and I am getting so discouraged.

I have got to get up and do something. Guess it will be a DVD today since its snowing and I really dont want to get out in it!

No greater feeling…

Today, I hit 190!   I am officially the weight I was when I was 16.   I now match my divers license!

I really had to giggle this morning when I seen that number.  I am loving the feeling of being a lighter, much healthier person.  

This week I plan on vamping up my workouts.  I want to do at least an hour of cardio three days a week.  Plus weight training 2-3 times a week.   I really have to work on my gut.  So, crunches everyday.  

Well, thats really all I have going on here.   Boring wife, mother duties today.  You know, laundry, dinner, being lazy :)

Becoming myself

Recently I have been feeling like a new person.

I must admit, I have never been happy with myself.  I have a horrible self image and that drug me down for a long time.  

At times, I would get so depressed that I would sulk for days.  I hated everything about myself.  I was unhealthy and out of control.  I would tell myself that I was just going to be “fat and happy” and basically eat whatever in the hell I wanted to.   Then, every now and then, I would get on a healthy bandwagon and lose 20 or 30 pounds.  I never lost enough to get skinny. I lost enough to feel a little better.  I would get so tired of eating crappy low fat food and working out that I would go back to my old habits.

I am noticing huge changes in my body.  I have collar bones now.  I havent seen them in years!   I am down to a size 12 jeans, wearing lose fitting XL shirts.  I am enjoying shopping for clothes now. 

I am not in this to be super model skinny.. I am in this to look and feel better about myself.  I am 35 years old and damnit its time for me to feel good about myself.   I am doing this for me..and me only.

I am not starving myself, and I am not taking diet pills.  There isnt a miracle drug that is just melting away the pounds.  I am doing it the hard way.  Blood, sweat and tears.  This is my life now.  A life that I will be proud of and will finally be happy with.

I’m such a slacker!

You could say that I fell off the wagon.  Or, you could say that I just didnt care.  Either way, you would be right!   The last couple of weeks, I ate what I want and didnt move my butt much.  That was fine with me, I was celebrating and didnt care.

Imagine my surprise when I actually lost weight!   I am thrilled and worried at the same time.  If I can sit on my ass and lose weight, but if I exercise I dont lose a damn thing.

UGH blogger hates me tonight, again!   I keep losing what I type. 

Anyway,   I have been back on track.  I am down to 192 and very happy with that!   At least I am not moving back toward 200!   Tomorrow I plan on working out.  Tonight is my last night of vacation and I am enjoying it!

Christmas time!

I cant believe its nearly Christmas!   I am way behind on everything.

I just wanted to post a quickie update.  I gained over Thanksgiving, worked my butt off, and finally pulled it back off.  So, I am back down to 193.

Its been crazy around here, so working out has came by way of working.

I am hoping that its enough!

Dreaded day after…

Well, I did alot better yesterday than I would have guessed.

After loading up my plate full of Thanksgiving goodness, I was able to eat only a 1/3 of what I had.  I made sure to eat more turkey than anything. But, I managed at least a bite of everything. 

The Hubs, son and I went to the movies last night.  I think everyone around here had the same idea though.  After getting home late, I ate another roll and called it dinner.   

Today I am back on track.  Hubs and I went and worked out this morning.  An hour later I thought I was going to pass out dead.  I pushed myself more today than I have in the last few weeks.  It was nice to sweat and know that I am making myself a healthy person.   I managed to work some running in on my treadmill workout.  OH LORD, its been so long since my lard ass has ran.   I did some sprints and thought I was going off the back or I was going to die.   At the end of the 1 minute sprint, I really didnt care which came.

We are going to aim for 2 work outs today.  Although I may just pop in my Biggest Loser DVD and call that good!

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving.  Back on track today!

Quickie!

I can not wait until tomorrow!  Stop counting calories and probably not working out!   LOL  Fat girl loves Thanksgiving!   

I think I finally fixed comments so that everyone can comment!  Look forward to hearing from you all!

Fit together!

I am so happy that the hubby and kiddo have joined the fitness craze around here!

My husband has never wanted to “go workout” with me.  But now, him and Jay want to go every night!  Its fun to do it together.

Breaking up is hard to

I have always been a big girl. 

Do I want to be skinny? Hell Yes   But, that is not my motivating factor in my current journey to lose weight.   My health is my number 1 reason for trying to turn my life around and be a skinnier healthy person.

I was diagnosed with high blood pressure about 9 years ago.  I had a slew of heart problems at the time that pretty much kept me in the cardiologist office.   As soon as my b/p was under control, along came diabetes.

Being in my late 20’s, I blew everything off!   Out of sight, out of mind.  I quit taking all my meds.  I quit monitoring my blood pressure and my diabetes.   It was so much easier to eat whatever I wanted, when I wanted.  I didnt have to worry about taking pills, or giving myself injections everyday!

Soon after, my weight crept up to 240.  This was my heaviest.   I told everyone that I didnt care, I was going to be fat and happy.  But, I was miserable with it all.

November 2008 I was diagnosed with  complex atypical hyperplasia.   Face with the fact that I had a 60% chance of it turning into cancer I had a Hysterectomy in December.  When labs came back after surgery, it had already grew into cancer. I knew then that my life had to change.  I was put back on all my meds and tried again to lose weight.

That lasted a couple of months, and I was back where I started.   No meds.

Finally, I decided I would try this healthy thing again.  I had been eating less, moving more.  That was all I was doing.  No big fad diet.   My biggest thing was ditching my Dr Pepper.   Once I started drinking more water, I started losing more weight.  

So, I was down 25 pounds when it was time for our yearly insurance blood work.   I was pretty happy to see that change on the scale.   What I didn't like was my b/p was sky high.    It wasn't long and the company Dr called and wanted to see me asap.    I knew where this was going.

I was diagnosed with Metabolic Syndrome.   From the American Heart Assoc.

The metabolic syndrome is characterized by a group of metabolic risk factors in one person. They include:

• Abdominal obesity (excessive fat tissue in and around the abdomen)
• Atherogenic dyslipidemia (blood fat disorders — high triglycerides, low HDL cholesterol and high LDL cholesterol — that foster plaque buildups in artery walls)
• Elevated blood pressure
• Insulin resistance or glucose intolerance (the body can’t properly use insulin or blood sugar)
• Prothrombotic state (e.g., high fibrinogen or plasminogen activator inhibitor–1 in the blood)
• Proinflammatory state (e.g., elevated C-reactive protein in the blood)

GULP!   Really, this is where my hard head got me!  Being stupid about my previous issues drove me into a pit of disease!    I started back on my normal b/p  and diabetes pills, plus cholesterol pill and a baby aspirin.

The Dr explained that my blood is fatty and my metabolism is in the tank.  So, once I was on the pills a while it would be a lot easier for me to lose weight!    Very Positive!  

I am down to 195 now.  My biggest thing is to eat my protein everyday.  Cutting back on carbs and fats is pretty rough.   But, so far that's where I am at. 

I am getting happy and healthy.   Down 45 pounds so far, and 45 to go!

Hoping that I can stick it out this time,  praying that I don't fall into the same rut as before.