Recently I have been feeling like a new person.
I must admit, I have never been happy with myself. I have a horrible self image and that drug me down for a long time.
At times, I would get so depressed that I would sulk for days. I hated everything about myself. I was unhealthy and out of control. I would tell myself that I was just going to be “fat and happy” and basically eat whatever in the hell I wanted to. Then, every now and then, I would get on a healthy bandwagon and lose 20 or 30 pounds. I never lost enough to get skinny. I lost enough to feel a little better. I would get so tired of eating crappy low fat food and working out that I would go back to my old habits.
I am noticing huge changes in my body. I have collar bones now. I havent seen them in years! I am down to a size 12 jeans, wearing lose fitting XL shirts. I am enjoying shopping for clothes now.
I am not in this to be super model skinny.. I am in this to look and feel better about myself. I am 35 years old and damnit its time for me to feel good about myself. I am doing this for me..and me only.
I am not starving myself, and I am not taking diet pills. There isnt a miracle drug that is just melting away the pounds. I am doing it the hard way. Blood, sweat and tears. This is my life now. A life that I will be proud of and will finally be happy with.
I'm proud of you for doing this for the right reasons.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right there is no magic pill. Losing weight takes a lot of hard work and determination. Remember, losing weight is simple but it's not easy. But you can do this.
I'm happy for you! :)
This is awesome!
ReplyDeleteYou know, sometimes we start diets for all of the wrong reasons. It's like we look at it as a "diet" rather than a journey to better health. But then, once you start one and you realize that you are doing it for *you*.... that's when it all clicks.
Congratulations on your success! :o)
~Kellie